writing prompts for confusion

when you don't know what you feel yet, naming the not-knowing counts. start anywhere.

• are you actually healing or just getting quieter about it
• do you miss them or do you miss not being alone. it's okay if you don't know.
• i keep thinking maybe if i was different. not even better just different. do you do that too.
• the thing nobody understands about what happened is
• how are you. and not the version you tell people.
• do you even know what you miss anymore. them. or the shape they left.
• some days i'm fine and i can't tell if that's progress or if i just stopped feeling it.
• i keep waiting to understand what went wrong like it's a sentence i'll finish someday.
• you're not sad today. is that healing or is that just monday.
• the last thing they said keeps changing meaning depending on the hour. which version is true.
• do you miss them or do you miss who you were when they looked at you.
• i replay the part where it was still good and i can't find the exact second it wasn't.
• are you over it or did you just run out of ways to say you're not.
• they texted back warm and then nothing. tell me what that was supposed to mean.
• i'm not crying anymore and i don't know if that's relief or something worse.
• do you want them back or do you just want the not-knowing to stop.
• there's a version of me from before that i can't get back to. do you ever look for yours.
• i thought i knew them. now i don't know which year was the lie.
• how do you grieve something you're not even sure is over.
• the mixed signals weren't confusing to them. only to me. i think.
• am i healing or have i just gotten good at the days when nobody asks.
• i don't miss them at noon. at 2am i'm not so sure. which one is real.
• they said it wasn't about me and i still can't figure out who it was about.
• do you actually feel better or did you just lower what better has to mean.
• i keep rereading the last conversation for a clue i already know isn't there.
• part of me is relieved and i don't know what that says about all of it.
• you're quieter now. is that peace or did you just stop reaching for them.
• i can't tell if i forgive them or if i just forgot to keep being angry.
• they were everything and now i can't remember why. that scares me more than missing them.
• do you still love them or is it just the muscle memory of having.
• nothing they did adds up to leaving and yet here we are.
• i feel okay and i keep waiting for the okay to turn out fake.
• which is worse. that they changed. or that maybe they didn't and i just stopped seeing it.
• i'm not waiting for them to come back. i think. ask me again tomorrow.
• the silence felt like an answer for a while. now i'm not sure it was one.
• do you remember who you were going to be before all of this rerouted you.
• some nights i don't miss them at all and that absence is its own kind of strange.
• they apologized for the wrong thing and i never figured out what i was actually owed.
• am i moving on or just moving. there's a difference and i lost it somewhere.
• i can't tell if i want them or if i just want to not be the one who lost.
• everyone keeps saying you'll understand it later. it's later. i don't.
• do you miss the person or the future you already lived in your head with them.
• i went a whole day without it hurting and then i felt guilty. explain that one to me.
• is this acceptance or have i just made a home out of being unsure.
• i don't know if i loved them or loved being chosen. those felt the same until they weren't.
• the relationship made sense from the inside. now i can't rebuild the logic of it.
• do you feel free or just untethered. i keep mixing those two up.
• i stopped checking their profile and i can't tell if that's strength or surrender.
• they came back warm for a week then vanished. i never got to ask which one was them.
• how are you. really. not better, not worse. just whatever this in-between is.